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Post by caroline isabelle sutton on Jan 22, 2012 19:31:30 GMT -6
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carly had always wanted someone in her life who would be there for her and who cared about her and she'd done her best to try and surround herself with those kind of people. she wanted so, more than anything, to have a life filled with people she cared about because deep down she never wanted to live a life like she had in high school ever again. though high school always came and went for some reason it was always a big defying moment. who you were in high school was a moniker that followed you all your life, especially if you lived in the town that you graduated from. it was crazy but it was true. carly had to wonder what the people of keizer still thought of her. sure she'd gone and left that place with two years of high school to be finished in valkyrie, a place she'd liked so much more, but she was always curious about it. did the people who she'd once seen as friends still think of her in that horrible manner or did they see her as something different? for the longest time they had hated her without reason. they'd thought she was a slut who had run off and cheated on her boyfriend who had been the school's golden child and god given grace to the halls of keizer high school. what they hadn't seemed to realize was just how much of a bastard he really was, someone that carly hadn't realized was so bad until he'd been faced with his mistakes and had pawned them off on someone else. cain had been her first. he had been her everything and she'd given herself to him because she had trusted him for being such a good guy to her. he had been popular and at that time in high school that had been the ticket to everything. she'd been the youngest cheerleading captain in the school's history and he had been the big star of the school. they had been perfect for each other in everyone else's eyes but did they see what she had seen? had they known what she had known? no and the worst part was that no one was concerned at all with what she had to say or if there was any truth to the matter. people who she had invited into her world, people who had come to the school friendless and alone had turned their backs on her, something she'd never done to them in the first place and all because of a lie that everyone considered to be true. because she was the woman in the relationship and she had the burden of pregnancy to bear she was the lying, cheating harlot. she was the walking epitome of a scandal and that was a tough moniker to break. so carly had to wonder if the people of her old home town still thought of her in that way.
or did they in fact love her. did they see her as the prodigal child who had left their "womb" for a better life somewhere the minute she had become famous. carly couldn't really tell which answer could be true because the possibility of either was inevitable. the people of keizer had been fickle. being locked up in a small town persona had done little for them and had turned them on their own. gossip was the town's life's blood and carly had been the center of it for ever since she could remember. she had to wonder though that if the moment they saw she was on a dance competition and that she was becoming more and more famous, if they would put their stamp on her and claim her as their own. knowing what they knew about her, all of which had come out at the time when she had gone through the competition, did they still embrace her as their own. nothing had been said around the time of the competition that carly hadn't copped to. she had gotten lily back before the competition and she'd taken her with her and sat her in the front row alongside whichever family member had come to support her for that show. carly hadn't been ashamed that she was a teenage mother. it was an undeniable fact and one that she didn't try to hide. lily was her daughter and she would always be her daughter no matter what kind of hell rained down on her because of it. the show of course had eaten it up. they loved that her "scandal" had brought them so much publicity for a pilot season and her involvement had made the show what it was today. carly of course had figured that it would get her voted off of the show within the first week or so but after a few weeks had gone by and it hadn't happened carly figured she should just roll with the punches and she had. still she had to wonder if now that she was famous that all of her discretions would be put on hold in her old home town. were they so fickle that once they saw her on television they would forget about all of the bad times and talk about how they had interacted with carly and how they knew someone famous? how they would say "i lived next door to someone who is famous now" or "i once put my gum in the hair of someone who is now on television"? she had to wonder. carly had never been back to keizer and it would have been interesting to see the kind of reception that she'd gotten and though it was an interesting thought it was only a thought and never something carly wanted to see through. she had promised herself years ago that she would never return to keizer and that was still the cae to this day. she would never, ever again go back to that place.
instead she had valkyrie and it's embrace as warm as the one same had her in right now. she had missed him and their closeness so much it hurt. there had been so many moments like this back in new york when lily would fall asleep in their arms and carly and sam would pause the movie, put lily to sleep and crawl back on the couch together to finish it up. this reminded her of old times that really, in the grand scheme of things, was not that old. she had only left him in new york for a few months. still she was glad to have him back in her life and happy to have his arms wrapped around her once again. it gave her life a feeling of completeness that she hadn't felt since she'd left. "work. earthquakes. but that still doesn't change the fact that i just up and left with no...nothing. i hardly gave you any warning and i've been regretting it since i got here and since lily started asking when you'd be coming down too." she smiled at his mention of old times. this certainly did feel just the same as it always had and it felt like a weight off her shoulders. to have lily not asking her about when he'd come back was a really nice thought because for the longest time calry hadn't known how to answer her. she watched the movie progress and enjoyed the dancing fish and the peppy song choices until sam's voice pulled her away from the animated dream world. "huh?" she asked as she focused in on his words and what he was saying. she looked up at his as he fidgeted, her brow furrowing in confusion. "i think i can be that guy for you carly." was he saying what she thought he was saying? "sam." she whispered as he cupped her cheek, her eyes searching his in a mix of confusion and shock. he was really going there? he really felt this way? how in the hell had she not seen this?! she sat upright as he spoke about fighting for her. had his proposal been...real? had everything carly had ever thought she had with him something else in his eyes? apparently so. she felt like such a dummy for never seeing it. "i...i didn't know...you...really?" way to go. carly couldn't even form a proper sentence. she was a little blindsided by all of this but more so she was blindsided by the fact that this had always been here, right in front of her face, and she'd never seen it. "but you'd always told me you only wanted to be friends. how long...how long have you felt like this?"
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Post by samuel henry lockhart on Jan 26, 2012 10:35:25 GMT -6
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ALL THAT I DREAM ABOUT The Lyrics: 'goodnight moon' go radio The Outfit: here Tagged carly The Notestoo much sam muse, i had to run with it.
--- SAM was speaking from the bottom of his heart. they were feelings that had been buried deep within him for so long that he had no idea where to begin. he had imagined what he would say to her so many times he was embarrassed to admit how many. he probably started when he realized he was actually in love with her. they had been friends for awhile, and when carly went back to dance at the season finale of american dance, sam and lily were in the audience and after she danced she said 'i love you' to lily, but sam thought for a moment that she said it to him, and the way his chest clenched for the brief moment when he thought she said she loved him, he knew. he was in love with her. it was odd on sam's part. he was fine loving her, even if she didn't love him back in the romance sense. not too many people could just sit there and be around a person so much to the point that you were living together as friends, continue to be in love with them and no you didn't really have a chance. but he just sat and waited, and waited, and waited, and soon realized that this was just become a dream than being reality.
to him, the real sam and carly was more interesting than the sam and carly they painted in the tabloids. he was sure reporters would eat up the fact that they were friends but really, sam was head over heels for her. and now, he was in her hotel room, which really felt like old times with the movies and the hanging out on the couch while lily took her nap. but it was completely different because he opened his mouth. he wondered if he was doing the right thing. was it bad that he just opened up like this so quickly? should he just of stayed on the sidelines like he was so good at doing? it was at lunch when carly said there was possibly someone else. that was what made the difference. it was the fact that there was another guy that started the jealousy. sam was anxious. he felt like he was losing his chance and he felt like he made a huge mistake in not expressing his feeling earlier. he was so good at showing real emotion in movies, but he could never tell carly how he really felt. his life was so strange.
sam did think if this was going to mess things up in the future. he didn't want it to, but he could see how it would. clearly, his feelings weren't going to go away, and she would always know about his feelings. could sam still continue to be friends with her when she knew he loved her and she couldn't feel the same way about him? sam thought he could, though it would be damn hard because it's not like it's easy to turn feelings off. and what if she did start dating this criminal jamie guy? sam would have a hard time with accepting that. he was too... protective of both lily and carly to let anything bad happen to them, and maybe it was just him, but criminals tended to be bad people, and they had danger that surrounded them. he was nervous and giddy all at the same time. what if deep down, she was having the same feelings towards him that he had had towards her all these years? even if she didn't at least she would know how he felt.
she was surprised, but he was expecting that anyway, whether that was a good or a bad thing, sam did not know. "i...i didn't know...you...really?" like sam could even just see her as a friend. like anyone really could only see her as a friend. carly was beautiful, she was kind, her smile made him smile, she really was perfect. perfect for him. "but you'd always told me you only wanted to be friends. how long...how long have you felt like this?" he let go of her cheek for a moment. yeah, he had said a long time ago that they should just be friends. it was a mistake, he knew that, his publicist knew that, his own mother knew that. "i lied," he admitted. even if they did live together in new york, they still had separate bedrooms, of course, but some nights, if they were watching movies, they'd just fall asleep on the couch together and for a moment or two, sam would wonder if this could be them, a couple. to him, it didn't feel like it couldn't work. of all the scenarios sam played in his head, there was too many pros that outweighed the cons. sam was so good with lily. and he truly loved the little girl. he knew he was only twenty two and looking at it objectively, he was willing to take on the father role for being in his early twenties and a career that was about to take off. but, he didn't care. he wanted everything with carly and lily. the good, and the bad, the stressful times, and the joyful times. he knew he could do this, and he wanted carly to see that.
he sighed for a moment when she asked how long he felt like this. sam scratched his head and chuckled at himself. "truthfully? a really long time," he confessed. he turned back to her. well, here goes nothing. "i love lily and i love you." he meant the worlds that he said wholeheartedly and he felt like those were words she always wanted to here. he let that sit for a moment before he hooked his fingers at the nape of her neck and pulled her lips to his. it was exactly how he would imagine it. a perfect fit. he pulled away and opened his eyes, hoping her reaction would be a good one.
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Post by caroline isabelle sutton on Jan 31, 2012 21:58:27 GMT -6
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she had come so far and yet all this time carly hadn't seen that sam had had feelings for her? she felt like and idiot but more so than that she felt like a horse whose blinders had just been removed allowing her to see the whole world as she was intended to. now it was like she could see everything and all the signs...they had always been there. the way sam had stuck around for the two of them had always seemed strange to carly but she hadn't talked herself out of it because it had been such a nice experience. as much as it was strange that sam had wanted to be there for the both of them carly had never dissuaded herself from feeling as though that was wrong because she wanted someone to share her life with. at that time she had wanted someone to be around who wasn't going to feel like a burden and who wasn't going to pressure her. back then she had needed only a friend and it seemed like that was what she'd gotten. she hadn't really wanted anything more as time had progressed either because things with sam and lily and their little makeshift family had been so...easy. why did she need to involve another person in the mix when she was so happy with everything that was going on. if you wanted to get technical about it then carly had chosen to be with him for months, she just hadn't really known that was the choice she was making. thinking about it now she felt foolish for not thinking about this kind of thing happening in the first place but after sam had told her there was nothing else there carly had been satisfied with that answer and had never really pushed that envelope any further.
she felt stupid about it now, and just a little more than caught off guard. she had hoped that she would have seen something like this coming but it was here now and all she could really do was just deal with the situation. but which one did she tackle first? and how? there was first a foremost her feelings for him. they had always just been friendly toward him. carly had never stopped and been blindsided by some other emotion toward sam because she'd been so contented with what was lying before her. she didn't want to hurt him but was it even possible for her to feel this way about him? comfortable was one thing but to reciprocate his love would take time, time that would have been all his if someone else wasn't in the mix. jamie. yeah it was hard to talk about or think about someone else when a guy had just professed his love for her but there was something about jamie that just drew carly in and to not even think about him in a situation like this was damn near impossible. as far as she knew jamie was very much a part of her life and though she hadn't seen him in a few days she was sure he wasn't going to be gone that much longer. how would he handle hearing about another man in her life who wanted to take on a role he was, in some way, vying for? she didn't want to keep it from him even though she knew that doing so would probably meant a little more safety for sam's sake. no she didn't think jamie was going to kill him just for telling her he loved her...right? honestly she didn't know. she was working under the assumption that everything could go right for her even though that wasn't the case at all. it was very much a possibility that things got really, really ugly from this point on and carly just didn't want to deal with it. she wanted to be happy, she wanted the people around her to be happy, and apparently that meant that she couldn't just sit this one out like she wished she could.
"no duh." she said in response to sam's confession about having lied to her. on a scale of one to shamu this lie was a whopper. she didn't know how she couldn't have seen this or how much it had eaten away at sam. jesus this had to have been hard on him. and here she was confessing just a while before that she might have feelings for another guy? ugh. she sighed as sam talked about having felt this way for a very long time and she felt her stomach bottom out. so she'd been blind for more than just a few weeks? this had been going on well into whatever she had felt was the "just friends zone." how blind could she really be? carly at this moment really was feeling like the world's biggest dunce. her gaze shot to his as he spoke about loving lily and her. she didn't doubt that for a minute. she couldn't. just looking at his face told her everything she needed to know. the thought was steadily percolating in her brain as she felt his hand against her neck and suddenly their lips met. carly felt a shiver creep over her skin as she found herself leaning into his kiss, her body responding to him the way she responded to jamie. the fire wasn't as hot but she blamed shock for most of that, not that sam needed to know. as sam pulled away carly slowly allowed her eyes to reopen and her fist to unclench...when had she knotted it in his shirt? she sat back a little, her thumb brushing over her bottom lip as a smile slowly crept onto her lips. "oh you really shouldn't have done that." carly whispered as she reached out to him and pulled him back in for one more kiss. was she crazy? quite possibly...but she liked it.
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